Random Rants

The past fortnight has been exasperating. I have never felt so low and down till date as I am feeling now. It had been really harrowing and I am still in the process of getting out of it.
This phase of irritation and low feeling started when a colleague of mine started poking me with stupid questions as to why I chat long hours with a blogger friend of mine. That was none of her business and I told her that straight. But she was not the kind who would understand. She realised that only after a blast from me. Some peole are just incorrigible. How many ever times you tell them not to involve in others personal stuff they keep being nosey about it.
Last friday we had this bday treat and it was supposed to be fun. But then later I really had to repent the fact that I played spoilsport in the treat but I had no other go. Now I am the fun kind. I don get provoked easily but sometimes I do get on my nerves and then im uncontrollable. It so happened that day.A colleague of mine kept commenting on me and I was the scapegoat that day. I too was laughing until they started speaking "beyond limits". And then I expressed my dislike in the most fierce way I could ever speak.People around started staring at me but I care a damn about it. I yelled at them and then walked out of Planet Yumm. I still feel guilty for doing that.Why is it so???
That was not the end. I was blasted at by my "superiors" for almost everything like reading blogs, using IM, and also I was at the receiving end of a sermon on "how to be professional"!! I really dont understand what is wrong in using all of them when I really don have any work to do??

The only good thing that had happened in the recent past is that I happened to buy quite a lot of books after a long time.I laid my hands on a set of PGW at an unbelievable price and also bought a few others like the Kite Runner by Khaled Hosseini, The Namesake,Intrepreter of maladies by Jhumpa Lahiri though I couldn't get Unaccustomed Earth.Also I bagged a few tamil books by Jayakanthan and Sujatha from a friend of mine.
I have been beaming at the mere sight of so many books spread all across my house and I intend to finish all of them by this weekend. I think the only thing that can bring down my stress levels and keep me sane are books. I love them absolutely and yesterday I resolved that I would atleast spend 5% of my salary on books.
My laptop dreams are becoming far-fetched day by day. I am becoming extremely hopeless in terms of money day by day... no that should be month by month.!! These days my bank balance has stooped to such low levels that by the end of every month I borrow money from my brother who is still in school!!!I wonder if my dreams would ever be fulfilled....I wish someone sponsors my laptop.!!! Sigh..I know thats going to be a dream....I think I am growing desperate here. Will stop my rant here as its time for dinner and yeah thanks for reading the whole thing( that is if you are still reading)!!!

Are We Becoming Heartless??

I had always believed that human beings were different from animals in the sense that they have something called the rational mind which could think ‘straight’. But very recently the thought shattered into pieces. I got to know that people can call themselves ‘human’ and behave otherwise.

Now that I have confused things so much I will somehow get to the point. The other day I was travelling by bus from Thiruvanmiyur to Ambattur in 47D; much to my surprise the bus had a few empty seats and I comfortably occupied one of them…the bus filled to its capacity within the next couple of minutes and I was nearly dozing then.. Somewhere near Adyar two kids; a girl and a boy got into the bus. They must be something like three or four years old and were on their own…

They jostled into the bus and with great difficulty got hold of an iron bar a few seats before me…

The kids looked famished and wore torn n soiled clothes. They were physically challenged; both of them were deaf and dumb and the boy, I suppose had difficulties in walking too.


I kept looking at them as they both communicated with each other. It was a treat to the eyes I would say. Their hands spoke, their eyes spoke and their body language perfectly complemented for the left out gap in communicating their thoughts. They made fun of each other and were in their own worlds.


Suddenly I heard a young girl scream at them and push them away from the seat. Somebody next to the girl had got up to leave and these kids were too enthusiastic to get seated. But the girl dint want them to sit it seems... What-the-hell I thought. There was no one else to get seated there as it was for ladies and what problem could she have in the kids being seated there. She looked smart in jeans and tee and looked decent enough. She had protested because these children were nasty and dirty. "how can I have dirty things next to me" she asked the people around. Nobody bothered to reply and she pushed away the kids from the seat!!!

I couldn’t contain myself any longer. I rudely told her that children were not dirt and made them sit next to me. Of course they had soiled clothes So what???
I wonder what sort of a girl she is. Why couldn’t she see the beauty in the child rather than the dirt on their clothes???Where are the so called virtues called compassion and love???


As I had the kids next to me I could find them as happy as ever. I had tears in my eyes when I gazed at them. I wondered if I have ever done anything for such kids. I felt ashamed of myself that instant…


When I got down from the bus I kissed them on their cheeks with tears in my eyes and wished that they were as happy as ever no matter what ever life had in store for them.


The thing to be pondered over here is where is humanity heading towards???

Memorable Days Part-II

As I got up from my bed today, I just couldn’t help noticing the date in the calendar… June 4, 2008.Yes it’s been a year since I started working. I vividly remember the day when I first reported at TCS Velachery, I was nervous and excited at the prospects of getting into work-life. One year had just gone by and looking back I think I have learnt so many things in this one year…From an immature–fun loving-flirtatious youngster I have come a long way. Not that I have renounced everything and concentrated just on work, but I think I have learnt to maintain the right balance.

Some of my college friends have opted for higher studies and there were times when I used to feel inferior about myself in this regard. But then when I contemplate on that now I do feel that I have taken the right decision. Work life had taught me umpteen things in life. It has given me financial independence and I think I have utilized ‘my’ money to the best possible extent… Of course I haven’t saved any but then I do feel satisfied about the way I have spent it.
More than anything else this one year saw me changing into a new leaf. I have revived my passion for writing and had taken up blogging. I am gradually turning out to be an extrovert. I have got a whole lot of friends and I really value them. They are the most prized possessions after all…I would like to thank all of them who have made a difference to my life and I wish I have them as near and dear ever as they are today.

Now doesn’t the ending sound like some farewell speech???
Well I just wish it isn a farewell and its just the beginning of a journey called “Life”.

Tidel Tales

This post has been delayed like anything; I mean I wrote it long back but now had shamelessly asked my frnd to post it owing to the work pressure I have in office!!!!

Just a Foreword: The 7th of May 2008 is very significant to me. It was the day when I got into the work place of my project after the 2 week long training at Siruseri. My work spot was Tidel Park which meant that all comforts of travelling in the company bus are withdrawn and I am back to MTC (Or PTC) buses after a long gap of ten months since college.

The day began as usual and I started off at 7 in the morning. I reached office puffing and panting as I had to walk a long distance from Thiruvanmiyur to Tidel Park. Now I would say this entire place is crazy. I just couldn’t figure out which lift leads to which floor; this I say because I boarded the lift and desperately kept pressing the button to the fourth floor not knowing that it won’t land up there. A well dressed (read: tall, good looking, jeans clad) girl looked at me as if I were from some other planet and educated me regarding lift usage. As a result I went all the way up to the 12th floor and then back again to the ground floor!!!!

Finally I managed to get into Cognizant premises in the fourth floor and after hours of waiting I was assigned a seat. After settling down I looked around. It was way too congested. I mean it was too difficult to imagine some 200 people having tea/coffee, playing chess/carrom, having lunch all in the same place which is barely the size of a kitchen. And the surprising thing is that they managed all this with such ease and élan. I think I bumped into atleast 5 people that day (One being a good looking guy who appeared dazed and totally shocked due to the sudden collision!!!!!)

Once I finished up with lunch I looked around for a wash area. I noticed some guys going for it and hence decided to follow them. A couple of guys went in and I blindly went behind them. Once inside I noticed guys all around me. I innocently wondered why on earth girls here would not want to wash their hands. Just then, to my great embarrassment I found out that I had ventured into the Men’s Toilet!!!!! I rushed out of the place as fast as I could wondering why the hell do people in this place have to wash their hands in rest rooms??? Can’t they have a wash Basin?? Atleast one???
Post lunch I immersed myself into work (which means I read blogs, forward mails and also a work related document sent by a team member) and at 6 I ventured out to start off my long distance journey back home. Now came another difficulty, I didn’t have a clue about the location where I was sitting (the entire place is a maze) and therefore moving out was to be done carefully analyzing the geography of the place. Somehow I walked through and eventually landed up in the car park area. I assumed a guy to be the watchman (he wore a similar dress) and asked him the exit way which he promptly explained with a smiling face. Only after asking did I realize that he wore the tag of a MNC and was supposed to be a senior officer or something. Oops!! Thank God he didn’t say anything rude. Then I painstakingly walked all around the building and heaved a sigh of relief only on seeing the roads. Freedom at last!! I thought to myself.

At last reached home and slept like a dead duck that night. Ouch!!! The first day at work was too tiring and confusing.

Now that it is more than a week since I am put up here I think I am getting used to the geography of it and can manage well without outside help. Hope I would learn to love this place as there are quite a wide variety of foods available here (though very costly!!!) and also noticed that there is a bookshop out there in the first floor.

So Tidel Park......... here I come to Rock U!!!!!!!!!!

Suicide!!!!!

Yes, I contemplated suicide. I had the worst of experiences last sunday and couldn’t stop myself from thinking about it.

I found out that there are different methodologies of killing oneself.

Drinking poison
Hanging oneself from the ceiling
Falling in front of a running train
Jumping from a high rise building
Stabbing oneself

All these might not prove to be 100% fruitful which means there are still chances of survival. But I know one sure shot method of reaching heaven (Or hell, Maybe!!!!)

It is to watch a recently released movie called “KURUVI”.

Given the fact that it is a mega budget movie directed by Dharani and has Vijay and Trisha as the lead pair I really shouldn’t have expected anything out of it.

Right from the introduction to the end it was absolute nonsense. Even the comedy part of the movie was too lame. The most intolerable part of the entire movie was the noise it created. (Read: songs) It was too loud, jarring to the ears and all of them being the kuthu-song types it made enough damage to my eardrums.

And coming to the story, I don’t have words to say...I felt like hitting my head on the wall.
I wonder where on earth would there be a sea with fishes in plenty just below the ground level. (For those of u, who haven’t been through the ordeal of watching the movie, the villain dashes the hero from the top of an escalator and he lands up being in the sea!!!!!!!) Ridiculous.....This is just an example... The movie has an entire collection of such absurd things.

I think I have ranted enough. Now all that I can say is Please Do not watch this movie if u really want to be alive....

Today I take a resolution never in my life again would I watch a Vijay movie atleast not before reading the review of the movie in a couple of movies.....

May God rest the souls in peace of those who happen to watch this movie!!!!!!!!!!!!